Friday, February 20, 2009

I'm Not Gonna Lie...

Things have been pretty tough for me lately. Staying on track this last month or so has been pretty impossible, but only because I've let myself put my goals on the back burner. I'm ripe with sleep exhaustion from 6 months of nightly wakings, and I'm overwhelmed with trying to deal with everyday life as the mother of two young children. I'm lucky if I can accomplish more than cooking dinner and throwing in a load of laundry most days.

Honestly, I've found that WW Online is not the greatest for an oldie like me. I do much better with writing out my meals on paper and going to the meetings where I can stand on the scale in front of someone and be held accountable for the number. However, $13 a week just isn't in the cards right now, so I just have to stick to this.

And, as long as I'm being honest, I'm extremely unhappy with my body.

There. I said it.

Even though I'm only 9 pounds from my goal weight, I'm extremely discouraged with how I will look when it's all gone. My stomach is a mess and no amount of working out will do away with the saggy extra skin that 2 pregnancies in 2 years left me with. Each new pound lost shows that I'm really gonna need that tummy tuck after all. I should've appreciated my flat stomach when I had it only 3 short years ago.

So. I need to keep blogging and tracking because summer is fast approaching this area (like next week or something, I'm sure) and I don't want to be that fat, flabby Mommy at the park. I want to be cute in sundresses and shorts, and in my one-piece bathing suit in the kiddie pool.

Warm weather is approaching...can I stick to it??


Anonymous said...

You can do it, you can do it, you can do it!!!

THEhooahwife said...

Wow you have made a ton of progress Leah!

The flabby tummy thing. I had flab even when I would lose the baby weight. I got this one book called "Lose your Mummy tummy" It was pretty practical, at least the stomach part, and I noticed a difference very quickly. It might be worth getting at the library to look at or email me your address and I'll send you my copy. No endless crunches or starving. Just simple things you can do all day while being mommy. Love you girl!